Agony that assuages

Ying and yang. It's balance that serves to make life complete and harmonious. And so, we have love and hate, misery and happiness, penury and wealth, sickness and health..... pain and relief.

And yet, there are times when pain can assuage pain.

Consider this: when you're passionate about something, to the point of craziness, you put yourself mind bosy and soul into it... the agony that you suffer when something goes wrong with that thing is.... mildly described, unbearable. What shall then soothe it??? What will make that pain go away, or at least, help you bear it???? Possibly, it is only appeased by being distracted from it.

Chetan Bhagat talked about 'deep dark inner agony, real pain' in his book One Night @ the Call Centre. The kind of pain that arised from the dark side within each of us. And the protagonist in question chose to cut herself time and again in order to feel pain that wasnt as tortuous as the inner agony she nursed. Pain assuagin pain.

What is it like??? You think, not me!!!! i'm not driven by craziness like that!!! i could nevr never cut myself!!!! And yet, its not a psychotic human who does it. Psychotic. It would be psychotic to try and cut your blood vessels so that you would die... and do that again, and again, and again. No. It isn't even about blood letting. All you're trying to do is feel something other than the heavy emptiness inside. The kind of emptiness that reduces physical pain to something that just pricks.

Yeah, the authorities would haul you to the loony bin in no time, for, of course, in a rational society, people deal with problems, they face them... they dont cut themselves repeatedly. really???? and how exactly do you explain away the millions who drink, smoke, use narcotics, all to do away with that mental agony? And what about all those suicides?? And the domestic abuse?

Rational society. Its rational enough if you can take time to get to the point of dealing with th problem, even if it involves harm, hurting yourself temporarily so that the big hurt does not strike you so hard.

Not to condone making ribbons from one's body.. but really, when you're alone... how long will you wait for help???? you're not killing yourself, ou're helping yourself move on. God helps those who help themselves... any takers???